223. I'm back. Desperate to make some progress. The weeks and months have gone by and I've just screwed around, eaten out of control, failed at Weight Watchers, failed at 100 other diets. I've gained more from "the last day before I start" than from anything else. I've had 2 days in a row with low blood sugar because I'm not eating in a healthy way. I've missed out on walks in beautiful fall weather. I've prayed and asked for help. I know God and Mary are waiting to help and support me, but I've got to help myself. It's only 1 year until Kayla's wedding. This is the one moment in my life when I thought I'd be motivated to lose weight. And I've just messed around and have put on 5 pounds this last week. I feel like a slug: unmotivated, unhealthy, out of shape. Waiting for some miracle to come along.
Well--that miracle has to be ME. ME taking care of ME. ME making the choices of what to put in my mouth. ME making the choices of what NOT to put in my mouth. ME making the choices to take a walk. Or to get out of the kitchen. Or to make a healthy soup for lunch. Or to plan ahead for supper. Or to drink another glass of water. It has to be ME.
I have to start now. I can't wait. I will be looking for a dress for the wedding in the late summer. That's when it has to fit. There are only 52 weeks in the year. If I'd lose 1 pound a week--which is very reasonable--that's only 55 pounds. I'd just be at 175. Not at 145 like I wanted. So I have to start now. And not stop. Make a healthy life commitment. So I can feel better, more energy, look better, wear nicer clothes.
So--what's my plan? I like the peanut butter and peppers blogger who said to eat NOW like I picture myself eating when I'm thin. Make choices a thin, maintaining person would make. Become NOW the person I want to be THEN. Aim for 5-6 servings of fruits/veggies each day. Drink 8 glasses of water.
Today: oatmeal, milk. Taco soup. Orange chicken thighs. Fruits, veggies. Water. Go for a walk after school. Even 10 minutes. Just 10 minutes. Go outside when I get home. Stay out of the kitchen after supper. Drink water. Stay positive. I just need to get through today. I need to get through from now until lunch. From lunch until I get home. From when I get home until supper. From supper until bedtime. 4 chunks. 4 successful chunks of my day. God is giving me this day to use it in the best way that I can. This is the day that the Lord has made. Let us be glad and rejoice in it. That means going to bed happy that I have made today the best day I can, in God's honor. He will help me and walk with me.
